Tirednes of God

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Wooden seat and desk shine by warm blessing light..
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Sharing with you what I read as the day is done.

Tirednes of God by W. Glyn Evans:

I have to realize there are 2 types of Tiredness. The first one is the tiredness because of too much activities. The second one is the tiredness that could not be noticed; the tiredness of God.

As human I know that my life is a serial process of self-emptying and self-filling. As I empty myself during serving, I have to fill myself back with the way of collecting energy from the unlimited God sources. If I do not fill myself back, I will run-out of energy. One of the failure’s cause in filling myself back is because the tiredness of God. In other word, I have lost my desire to be filled.

It’s unbelievable that I can run-out of transcendent God. Therefore, tiredness is the symptom of something wrong with my channel to Home. This channel could be stuck, spoil or I do not try enough to activate it. The last assumption happened when I have need that is bigger than my need of God.

The tiredness of God normally start with giving attention to the matter that make my heart goes into different direction and follow things that seems to please me even just for a short moment. At that level, I become sick and tired of God, which has lost the colour, the richfulness and the attractiveness to my heart. I am actually being in an unsafe condition. It is expected, with full-awareness I will leave the water-licking pool and be back to the water source of life.